But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

You would think that, after making a solid investment in teaching English as a foreign language (which includes traveling half around the world twice!), I would now be riding the wave, living the dream, but I'm not.

A couple of weeks ago, I mentioned that life in Bangkok is not paradise on earth - it's just life - and the same applies to my working life - it's just working life.

In practice, this means that I wake up every morning knowing that my daily fix of positive energy will come from whatever happens outside school; that I'll get to the end of the day physically tired but still craving for a challenge; all in all, I feel like I will listen to a song but won't have to dance to it.

I met Mark after work yesterday and, in our search for a cool and inexpensive place to have a drink, it started raining. In order to avoid getting soaked, we took shelter next to a building, where we ended up sitting for a couple of minutes.

Mark doesn't believe in the "calling" and, to be fair, lately I've also started thinking that there's little more to life than finding a job, getting bored to death doing it and, if you're lucky, spending most of the time in between with the people who really matter.

But the truth is that I don't really know - maybe we all have a special talent (and it's just a matter of time until we find it), maybe we don't; what I do know is that, regardless of what it is out there that fulfills us all, I haven't found it yet. But I plan to. The search is (back) on.